Sorry for the break in transmission. Life has been fairly busy up until new year and then Jack and I went away for a couple of nights on new year's eve. With Christmas, moving Jack's stuff up here from Jenni's and just trying to sort this house out after 5 months of not being here much and adding all Jack's stuff, life has been a little hectic.
Jack and I headed down towards the coast to stay at a place called Meeniyan as the weather was hot and we don't have air con here. We met some great people who had a young boy Jack's age and they played in the pool, built Lego, played cricket and generally had a good time. Jack and I went to the local go cart track for our first go at it and loved it. We had bbq's each evening with Jack's friend's family and the motel owner and watched a great storm roll in over us on NYE.
Yesterday on our way home we went to one of the best national parks in the world (slightly biased here!), Wilson's Promontory. I go there often with work and have done with friends often too but Jack had never been. He absolutely loved it, so even though it's an hour and a half away, we will be back there frequently.
Had a lazy day at home today in between sorting out Jack's room with different furniture. Still heaps to do but we are slowly getting there. Jack loved the break and loves his re-done room and keeps saying things like, "I wish Mum could see this" at various times. He doesn't really get too upset, just a little melancholy at times. We chat about it and he seems happy about the fact that Mum "can see it", she just can't talk to him about it, but he can talk to her.
We are heading down to see Jamie for his birthday on Thursday and heading off on our boys camping/caravaning holiday for a week or more probably on Sunday, 10th. Sorry if this post sounds a little like a diary. I will hopefully have more time for thought over the next few days. I still pinch myself every now and then when I think, hey, I'm doing this all alone. I know I have plenty of family and friend support, but you know what I mean. There's not Jenni there to tell about Jack's latest achievement or run past an idea about his sporting commitments or even just hat time he should go to bed. It's just me. It's what I always wanted, to have Jack and be a Dad, and I was doing ok but sometimes it hits you fight in the face, there's no back up now buddy! Anyway, we're doing ok at the moment.
Here's a few pics of our time away over NYE. I haven't forgotten the offers of help, financial and other, for Jack and things like his schooling. I just haven't had the headspace to think enough about it. There's the little thing of my pride too, being "the provider", that I have to work through as well.
Thanks again everyone.
Monday, 4 January 2010
Posted by Jen Ballantyne at 12:17 am