Monday, 2 November 2009

How Did I Get Here???

Well what a journey it has been! I look back at the things I've gone through that I really would not have believed I could without going insane. Somehow though, I am still in one piece. I guess the biggest thing was having Jack move to Warragul to live with his dad. I am so lucky that he was able to do so because I simply couldn't take care of him anymore and he was getting frustrated and let down all to often but it was still a gut wrenching experience. I didn't know what to expect in terms of how Jack would cope but I was so very happy and comforted when he settled in so well. David has been wonderful and really supported Jack through his transition to a new school. He loves Jack so much and takes such good care of him so Jack has managed so very well and is happy in himself. He now gets to do so much more, they play basketball after school and tennis and the past few nights Jack has been helping mow the lawn at the little farm they live at. Davids parents are also very supportive of both Dave and Jack, Dave knows he only has to pick up the phone and they can go and have a home cooked meal which is a blessing as Dave is still working and is a sole parent. They also help out with picking Jack up after school some nights and things like that, so I feel so very lucky and so comforted knowing that my little boy is in such good hands, even so, it has been hard for me and I have shed many tears of despair but somehow I bounce back and that is largely due to David as well, as he brings Jack to me every single weekend from Friday night to Sunday afternoon. This has been just so good for Jack and I, it really helps to know that we just get through the busy school week and then we are together again. So very precious and I am just so grateful to David for being so wonderful to us both, it's a lot when he works all week and then has to pack everything up and come down but he doesn't complain and just keeps it all together somehow. Thank God for Lee also, she has really been such a rock and is there for Dave if he needs a break. She will happily give up her time to either stay with Jack and I so Dave can go have some time out or she will take Jack for a while and spend real quality time with him. She just does whatever is needed, even just picking up or dropping off, some groceries here or there and also visits me at least twice a week, she is a wonderful friend and I am so blessed to have her in my life.

I think the best way to fill you all in on what has been happening is to do it over several posts. I'll just sort of continue on with each new post otherwise it will be one massive big post and it will take me ages to get it out to you so we will just do installments and this is installment one, so I will post this as is and then continue on in the next post. Thank you so, so much for your continued love and support it really means so much and I am so happy to be able to 'talk' to you again, much love back soon - Jen xx

37 comments:

  1. JENNI!!! It is SO good to hear from you again (I have not read the previous 2 posts - I will as soon as I post this greeting)! Woo hoo! Bless you. We continue to pray for you and Jack and Jamie and David and Lee. You just keep plugging along. I cringe when I hear that you have had a rough time of it and it literally breaks my heart, but then you suprise us all and post! Enjoy every moment....don't worry about keeping us updated...and don't feel guilty about letting time lapse in-between posts....you have too much living to do! Not a moment to waste! Enjoy, enjoy every moment that you can.

    Loving you from California
    Ruthie

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  2. Welcome back, Jenni! You sound wonderful and after all you're going through and have been through, that's an amazing feat in itself!!
    So glad to hear about how you're doing as we've all missed you so. David's been amazing at keeping us posted which is just beyond lovely really. I'm thrilled that Jack is doing so well... that's a dream to have him transition so comfortably even though I know it's tough on your heart.
    Looking forward to your posts and I'm sending you much joy, blessing wishes and prayers your way... from California too!
    Best, Cate
    (Who's in the Northern part of California near the San Francisco Bay)

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  3. Yay - you've got internet access. David has done a great job of updating but its not the same as hearing from you :) It is so good to hear how well Jack is doing at his new school and that must be a relief for you even when it is so tough.
    Will send you an email now you can access it
    love and hugs
    K xxx

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  4. Jenni, we've missed you so much. I am so glad you have David and Lee supporting you.

    I must leave for work now, but I will have a smile all day because we heard from you.

    My heart and prayers are with you.

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  5. Girl, have you been missed! What a beautiful Monday morning this is, to see posts from you. I am so glad you have Lee and David attending to your needs, and making sure you have lots of time with Jack & Jamie. Please be assured that there are sooooo many who are praying for you daily, wishing you and your family well, and care deeply about you and how you're doing. May that give you strength and peace in your heart.
    Much love, from Lisa in Florida

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  6. I am so happy to hear from you! We have missed you and been so worried, but David has done a wonderful job updating us. We love you, even though we've never met in real life..take care, dear girl, and we'll be here for you.

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  7. Jenni I don't know how you do it - such grace. I am so thrilled you are back online. It is selfish perhaps, because I so needed to hear from you. I can't imagine being even 1/12 as brave as you. God Bless you Jen. I hope you have many more amazing weekends with Jack and Jamie. Lisa L.

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  8. So good to hear your voice Jenn - so glad that things are going well and I can't begin to imagine how heart wrenching this has all been. So wonderful that you have David and Lee to help with this transition - Jack is very luck to have you all. He is well loved and in the big scheme of things that is the most important.
    You are loved. Many blessings, hugs and prayers
    Nicky from Canada

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  9. you are truly a source of inspiration. thank you for sharing your journey marcy

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  10. So lovely to hear your voice again, my sweet girl. Sending big messy love. xoxo Meg

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  11. So glad you are back. Love and prayers from New York!

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  12. I am here too, Jenn~! I feel as if we are all a big family and now the center of all of us is back :*) hang in there sweetie...so many of us are praying daily for you, for strength, courage and whatever you need to make it thru this journey and most of all,...a miracle~!

    Sue from Spokane WA oxooxoxooxo

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  13. Thinking of you and wishing you the best

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  14. You sound great! My thoughts are with you.

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  15. Hi Jen,
    I am so glad that you have this wonderful support system around you....all the beautiful people who love and care for you so much! (and us bloggers love and care about you too! I guess we are your virtual support system). I know that it must mean so much to you to have Jack so well loved and cared for. I am thrilled that you are posting again.

    xo,

    annie

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  16. Welcome back, Jenn!! I'm so glad to read your words again and look forward to each and every post!! God bless. :) XOXOXOXO

    ~ Wendy in New York

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  17. Jenni, I have missed you so. i am so overjoyed to see that you are able to be back online and share with us all. What a journey indeed that you have been on...but you have so much love surrounding you. I love hearing from you and look forward to your next post!

    i love you!
    Shelbi

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  18. Thank you so much Jen! I am so happy to read you again! You are such a wonderful woman and such a wonderful Mum! I gave learnt so much thanks to you! Be blessed Jen! I am looking forward to read another part! All my love to you! Dominique xxx

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  19. Dude, I cannot believe how happy I am to have you back!Especially as every time I clicked on your blog which is in my Favourites, I was a tad worried!I also am looking forward to read many a new post, long may you stick around pain free, that is all I can say! Thank you so much for being you and thank you to David as well for being almost as awesome as you are! Sparkles and much love from London, UK!

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  20. Jenni, I'm just so THRILLED to hear your sweet voice again! Thank you for thinking of us and sharing where you are. David has been awesome in keeping us posted. I'm so happy that Jack and Jaimie are doing so well. I know it was so very hard for you but a comfort, I'm sure, to see how Jack is doing so well. Praying for you, dearest Jenni. Many, many thanks to David and Lee for being the caring friends in person that we would all like to be for you. Love forever—Cathy in Boston

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  21. Hi Sweetie....so good to "hear" your voice across the net.

    Sending hugs, love and prayers to you from Canada.

    You are an inspiration to all of us other Moms out here to remember what is important in our lives.

    Take good care.
    xoxoxo

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  22. Yay! Yay! Yay!

    Can't wait to hear more from you--glad you are able to post, Jen-girl!!!

    We've missed you so!!!

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  23. Jen, It's so good to have you posting again.
    You are in my prayers.
    Hugs,
    Dodie

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  24. So WONDERFUL to hear from you :)
    Oh you sound so strong and amazing.
    Think of you everyday.

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  25. So good to be able to read how you are doing.David is a good person and I know you appreciate him so very much.Hugs and love to you and your precious family.

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  26. i am so happy to read and almost hear you back! all my love to you all, you are in my thoughts every single day, and they are blessing thoughts

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  27. Jenni it is so good to have you back. Thank you for all that you share. You are a beautiful person.

    I am happy for you that you have a laptop with you there. Take care and may you have restful sleeps.

    **Jeannie

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  28. Oh, wonderful you can be connected again! I am thinking of you so often and grateful to David for keeping us posted. I am still trying to write about you, BTW, but not finding a home for it yet. I know what is meant to happen will happen but please know that no matter what your words will live on here. (And, David, wherever you choose to write is wonderful, too, and thank you for keeping Jenni's supporters in the loop.) Anyway, Jenni, sending you so much love and light from California. You are amazing, and I hold you in my heart.

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  29. It is so nice to read your post! Can't wait to hear more from you--

    Sending you love from Toronto

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  30. Jen - Wonderful that you have the support you need and so deserve. I so look forward to your posts. I wish that I lived nearby, I would help all I could! Second best to that is letting you know that I am always thinking of you and wishing that you are comfortable and able to be with your boys.

    Love, Susie

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  31. Hi sweet friend! You've been in my thoughts and prayers although I haven't been by in a month or so. My blog reading time has been limited until recently but it's good to be doing it again. I'm so happy Jack is settled and happy. I know this eases your heart. Take care of YOU. So glad you're able to blog again.

    Hugs!
    Kat

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  32. Thinking of you, Jen! It's so good to hear from you! :)

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  33. YEAH! So happy to see an update from you.

    Thinking of you often.

    Emily from Colorado

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  34. I am so grateful to David for keeping us posted and for all that he is doing for you, but I am so so happy to get a post from you and be able to tell you once again for myself that you are constantly in my thoughts and prayers!

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  35. Hi Jen! What a wonderful surprise to see you back. I do wish you peaceful loving days with your family. Thinking of you!!!
    Hugs,
    Rose

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  36. It's so good to hear that Jack is adjusting well to being at David's. Children are so resilient (much more so than we adults are).

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