Thursday, 27 August 2009

Random Thoughts...






Just a quick update, it's been so challenging - I have to say that I have really needed support and I have been fortunate enough to have had it, my sister came to me on a night where I had just lost it! I was so upset, couldn't stop sobbing, I felt completely bereft and the telephone rang, I picked it up without thinking and it was my sister saying she had a feeling that all was not well and of course when she heard me crying she jumped in the car and drove to me. She stayed and talked me through the pain for hours, she left looking exhausted in the the wee small hours of the morning to go home to a house with three little boys needing her in the morning. Actually though it started before morning, the baby woke up just as she got home and then Max woke (her little son with autism) so she had her hands full as soon as she got home. I felt so bad for her but honestly her coming up to me made such a difference, she is a very caring person. I am finding out who the really authentic souls are at the moment. It is both happy and sad. Lee has been my rock. I don't even know where to begin. She is there for me all the time, she takes days off work, she will do anything that I need, nothing is too much trouble including driving to Warragul. The other morning at hospice I had to go off for some tests as there was some concern as to whether I had another blood clot. I am at a stage where I can't stand any more invasive tests done. This required bloods to be taken, not so easy with my veins and a canula put in my vein so dye could be put through my body for the scan. I just can't cope with anymore, I don't know why, anyway Lee had phoned me earlier that morning and I briefly told her what was happening and I know I sounded awful because I was very weak and tired, I had a room full of doctors too and had to keep the conversation short. Anyway there I am sitting in my room, two beautiful nurses meanwhile had come and offered to come with me to the hospital and be with me whilst I had the tests done. Can you believe that? They were given permission to take the time out to do that with me, that's how fantastic they are here, anyway they had just started leaving my room telling me to think about who I'd like to come with me (I didn't want to have to choose) when they suddenly came back in again all bustling and excited and said "look who the angels have brought" and they moved aside and there was Lee. She had taken the day off and was coming to be with me throughout all of the tests and she did too and I was so very glad. I honestly don't think I would have gone through with it if not for her, I just didn't have any inner strength left but she stayed by my side, gently rubbing my back and just let me doze when I needed too and looked after me so very well. I am truly grateful and so very lucky to have such a dear, devoted friend. My other friends have kept in touch too but Lee has been the one doing the hard yards. Another evening I was crying in despair because I just couldn't see how I was going to be able to get up to visit Jack at Warragul for longer than one weekend. In order to make that work I would have to leave on a week night and have David bring me home on a Sunday but I thought who would be willing to drive to Warragul and back, a two and a half hour drive on a week night. I was crying to my other sister actually, Caz and would you believe she actually asked me how much a cab would cost! Anyway, I was crying to Lee about it later and of course before I even finished explaining my worry she had offered and said she didn't mind driving me up there at all, that it wasn't that far and she was more than happy to do it. That is a true friend isn't it? I am just so very lucky to have her. Of course, it has left me with yuckish feelings toward my sister! I feel bad but I can't shake the hurt that it caused that she didn't offer even though she knew how upset it was making me. Anyway, she never reads my blog so I guess I am safe enough to mention how I feel here. It's just made me feel awkward with her now and it's a shame but I don't quite know how to deal with it without causing a big fuss. I guess I'll just leave it and hope that my feelings don't show too much, I just couldn't help but notice the lack of warmth and real putting yourself out for someone else. Especially when getting such authentic love and care from my other sister and my friend Lee. They don't just do bits and pieces when it suits them, they really do the things that require a real selflessness and I just love them so much for it it is hard to put into words the love and gratitude when you are so helpless and so sad sometimes.

Okay I am going to have to finish here, I will probably just post bits and pieces when I can so if you get lots of small posts don't be concerned, I will just grab time in between visits to hospice.

It is now Friday night again, so a few days have gone past since what I have written above. I still feel the same way about my sister (Caz - the one who said 'get a taxi' basically) and Lee has still been my rock. She came up to hospice this morning to help me go over my will and get some stuff done before bringing me home to help me here in the home to get ready for Jack's arrival but when she arrived at hospice I was so sound asleep, I slept through a workman fixing my door that leads out to a courtyard area, I slept through pain, as Lee explained she could see me cringe and curl up when the pain got bad but I didn't wake so she said she thought I must have been given something to help me sleep or to knock me out so after waiting patiently for over an hour she decided to go home and just let me sleep. Anyway I eventually woke at 11.30am and freaked out about Lee because I knew she thought she was coming earlier than that so I phoned her pretty much straight away and she was so beautiful, explained that I had been asleep and she rathered I had extra sleep so she was willing to come back again whenever I wanted her to! What an angel. So she did, she came and got me in the afternoon and brought me home, then proceeded to do loads of washing, hanging them out, fold up dry stuff, do dishes, play with the dog for ages with the ball so he got some attention, she is such a true, true friend. She is also picking Jack and I up in the morning and taking us to her home, she has a net trampoline built over a hole in the ground and it is really bouncy. Jack absolutely loves it, so we're going there for a bit of fun and for lunch, then she's taking me back to hospice just for my meds and stuff and then bringing us home again. Isn't she amazing! I love her so very much. Anyway, I really had better sign off, I am doing quite well at the moment, haven't had a pain crisis since last night. I am going to take my sleeping tablets again tonight and hopefully I will sleep through any pain. I am really looking forward to the next two days with Jack and will make the most of them as they go so quickly. Not sure how I'll go on Sunday when he leaves again but I won't think about that until he's gone so as not to ruin my time with him now. Take care my beautiful and supportive friends, I thank you again so very much for your warm comments and deeply caring words, they move me more than I can say, I am just so appreciative of you all. Much love.......

Edited to add: I was trying to include a song in this post that I particularly love it is called 'The Light of A Clear Blue Morning' and it is sung by Dolly Parton but I had all sorts of trouble so please ignore any strange goings on in that area. Honestly I am technologically challenged!

131 comments:

  1. Jen,
    I'm so thrilled you have a wonderful friend like Lee in your life.
    She sounds like a true treasure.

    I can't believe your sister doesn't read your blog. Most sisters would be here EVERY day to see how you are doing.

    Jen, don't ever forget you have all of your online friends who love you dearly.

    Hugs,
    Dodie

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  2. I have a plaque that an old friend once gave me, with a quote from Fr. Bernard Cooke. this is what is says:
    We need to have people who mean something to us. People to whom we can turn, knowing that, being with them is coming home.
    Lee is like that, yes?
    xox from NE Ohio

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  3. Dearest Jen,
    So glad that you have Lee looking out for you; your sister too. The other one.. well, she's the one who has to live with her shit, for want of a more ladylike exopression!
    I have a friend like Lee. They are worth the world. Truly putting their money where their mouth is. Hope you have a lovely weekend with Jack with not too much pain xxxx

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  4. Jen, your post just brought tears to my eyes. Yes, you are so very lucky to have such an incredible friend in Lee. And she in you. I hope your weekend is exceptional. :)

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  5. Dearest Jen
    So glad that you are getting the extra support you need - there are wonderful angels among us (they are not always family - as we expect them to be) but I think we all have special angels sent to take care of us. You are lucky for Lee. Enjoy your wonderful weekend with Jack - lots of hugs, laughter (and hopefully no pain)
    Much love and blessings being sent to you!!
    Nicky from Canada

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  6. Dear Jen -- I'm glad to hear that Lee has been the wonderful friend to you that we all (who read your blog) wish we could physically BE THERE for you. What a blessing that she is there and really supportive and wonderful as you are soooo very deserving of such an angel in your life right now. Enjoy your weekend with Jack, and I am praying that you are pain free and really and truly able to enjoy each and every moment with your sweet son.
    Hugs and much love being send to you from Florida,
    Lisa

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  7. Hi Jen! So happy to hear about wonderful Lee! What an amazingly fine friend and person!! Please give her and your sister a hug from all of us who are so grateful that they can do what we can't. If ever a person deserved a fine friend and a devoted sister, it is you, dear Jenni. I hope you have a fine, fine weekend with Jack. Sending heaps of love and all good wishes—Cathy

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  8. I always think that the true angels in our lives are those that do things each and every day without the want of anything returned. You are so lucky to have Lee - she is an angel. God sent her to you for a reason. As for the others, shame on them.

    Please enjoy Jack this weekend. I'm so happy he will be with you. Hugs dear Jen.

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  9. You are always in my thoughts and prayers, Jen. Thank God for friends like Lee and for your sister. You really do find out the depth of someone's compassion when there is a crisis going on. They are both your angels here on earth. God bless you always. xoxoxoxo

    ~ Wendy in New York
    http://Crickleberrycottage.blogspot.com/

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  10. Dear, sweet, Jen. I hope you have a great weekend with your Jack.

    I'm so glad you have sweet Lee in your life. She must be a special gift to you from God.

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  11. Jen, I am so blessed to hear you have LEE in your life. good friends like that are a gift from God.

    please do promise to post when you can, i come here almost daily to check in on you.

    xoxoxo
    shelbi

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  12. Jen, it just feels like a God thing that you have Lee in your life. It makes my heart happy to know that someone as kind and beautiful as yourself is being taken care of so graciously by this extraordinary woman. I am very sorry about your sister. It must hurt, and it must be hard to put that aside. Know that you are loved deeply by so many people.

    xp

    Jill

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  13. Dear Jen, How wonderful is your friend Lee? I think she is such an angel. To find someone as caring and selfless is she is is a blessing. I hope you are enjoying your weekend with Jack. Much love tou you, Suzanne.

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  14. I have been reading for ages and try to comment with every post and am trying again. I am moved by your bravery and your spirit!
    Best wishes
    Liesl NS Canada

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  15. What a wonderful friend.

    I hope you and Jack have the most lovely weekend together.

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  16. Hi dear Jen! I am so very happy that you have such a wonderful friend! I can tell that you love her very much. I don't have a blog anymore, but I visit you almost daily from work. I just want you to know I'm still here, thinking of you and praying for you. Blessings. Rose (Classic Charm)

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  17. Hi Jen, two posts this week! I am so happy to hear that you have support. Your sister and Lee do sound like angels. Love to you and the boys (and your angels).

    Susie

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  18. So glad for your wonderful friend Lee - wishing you much fun and love with your boy this weekend.

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  19. jenni,
    Thank God for friends and family who are willing to rise to the call. Bless them, Bless them! May your weekend with Jack be nothing but wonderful and filled with love. Praying for you.
    Ruthie from California

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  20. Joining the chorus of praise to the angels in your life, and wishing you and Jack your happiest weekend yet! As always, hugs & prayers too :D

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  21. Jen,

    If I lived near you I would help Lee with all of the things that she does for you. I wish I was not on the other side of the world...because I would love to bring you some small kind of comfort.

    I am picturing Jack on the trampoline...I hope you are having a lovely time.

    annie

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  22. Thinking of you and your family often. I am so glad you have friends like Lee to support you all. Love and hugs to you.

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  23. Jen,
    I have been reading your blog for a long time and am constantly amazed by you. I'm so happy that you have Lee in your life - - what a treasure she is to you. I hope that you and Jack have a wonderful weekend together.
    Heather in Idaho

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  24. Hi sweet friend! It made me smile to read how your friend and sister have been taking such good care of you. You're in my thoughts and prayers.

    Hugs!
    Kat

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  25. Your Lee is the friend I hope I can be when needed.
    Sending you love!

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  26. What an absolute angel, your friend, Lee is. She obviously loves you just as much as you love her. And I'm so glad the nurses at the hospice are so caring as well.

    love and hugs from Brisbane

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  27. Hi Jen,
    Lee absolutely ROCKS!! :-) She always has and I'm so glad.

    Hope you had a fantastic time with Jack, I'm sure he was thrilled to see you too!

    Love and best wishes,
    Cate in California

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  28. Hey, Jen, I am thinking of you and your family and wishing that you are having peaceful times. Hugs to you.

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  29. Thinking of you as I was driving home from work looking at the sun over our beautiful bay. Don't let your sister's actions disturb your peace of mind - your beautiful Lee is caring for you as usual. If you want help or anything (and I mean anything!)please let me know.
    Love and prayers
    K xx

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  30. When my mother was in the nursing home my sister lived nearby and visited everyday. One of my brothers and I lived 5 hours away and visited at least once monthly. But another brother only visited twice in two years. He said it was just too painful for him to see her that way. It was hard for me to understand and yet how could I know another's pain? I knew he loved her and I just had to accept that was all he could do. Thank God for my sister who visited daily. How wonderful that you have such a loving friend and a faithful sister! Thinking of you and wishing you the best!

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  31. Dear sweet Jen
    Deep in my thoughts and prayers today. Hope you have some wonderful quality time with your little man this weekend.
    Love and blessings
    Nicky from Canada

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  32. Dear Jen,
    I hope you will see Jack this coming week end! I am sending you all my love and my prayers go to you, your sons and dearest friend !

    Blessing, Dominique from France xx

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  33. Just want to say I love you! Be with the angels, those on earth, your dear friend Lee, your boys, and others that you know, and those who spiritualy visit us.
    Love <3

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  34. Hoping you are spending a lovely weekend with Jack! Hugs Lisa L.

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  35. Sending love,

    Cindy in Canada

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  36. jenni,

    praying you are doing well..sending you love,

    God bless you sweetie,
    Shelbi

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  37. I was thinking of you today and wanted to let you know. God bless.

    ~ Wendy in New York

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  38. Thinking of you, dearest Jenni. Sending love—Cat B

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  39. Just stopping by to let you know I'm thinking of you.

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  40. Thank God for Lee! And for the wonderful nurses, who bring so many of us such comfort.

    Sending you and your loved ones love.

    Susan, from Mothers With Cancer.

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  41. thinking of you and hoping you are ok. sending warm wishes and love from california... megan

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  42. Sending love from Texas. . . Lisa

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  43. Thinking of you. Hope your doing ok. Linda from Califoria

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  44. Hi Jenni,
    Hope things are going well for you these days. Praying for peaceful and quality time with the boys. Thinking of you daily.
    Ruthie from California

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  45. Hi Jen,
    You've got the California contingent sending you loads of good wishes (and worldwide, really) and hoping you're with your boys and enjoying the moments!
    Take good care,
    Cate in California (too)

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  46. Hey Jen,

    Just sending some love and thoughts from Canada, as always. I think of you often and am hoping you're doing as well as can be! *hugs*

    Take care,
    Amanda/The Maven

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  47. Many prayers and love surround you. Peggy xx

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  48. Hi Everyone,

    David here. Sorry I haven't updated yet. Jenni is in hospice most weeks from monday to friday and at home at her place on weekends when Jack and I go and stay there. This weekend just passed was Jack's birthday so things were pretty hectic, hence no updates. I also think that Jenni is not generally well enough or motivated enough to spend too much time at the computer on the weekends. She is also (understandably) mentally struggling with a few things one of which is not being with Jack and Jamie on a daily basis. We have bought a digital voice recorder for her to record stuff for the boys as it's more comfy for her to be in her armchair at hospice. Will try to work out some way for her to post again. I have set up a blog for later so can keep you up to date with the boys in future (Or at least try to) but will let you know the name of it at a later date (can't remember it now, it's something like, Trying to keep it simple!) Will print off your comments and take them to her if she doesn't get a chance to read them soon, but wont see her til at least saturday.

    Regards,

    David.

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  49. Dear Jen, I wish the love we all feel for you could ease your pain. You are in my prayers!
    Shelley from Canada

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  50. David,

    Thank you for updating us. We all appreciate it. Please send wishes of comfort to Jenni and let her know how many people are thinking of her.

    And a happy belated birthday to Jack (from someone he doesn't know.)

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  51. Thanks David for the update. Please send Jen my love and hope that Jack had a great birthday. Very tough times and I can only imagine the pain Jen feels being away from her boys.
    Wishing you all peace and love in this time. Jen remember you are an amazing mother and remarkable woman.
    Love and blessings
    Nicky from Canada

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  52. Thanks so much David, for the update on Jenni!! Wishing her the best that can be during these rough days and hoping that hospice is helping her to enjoy the time that she has with Jack and Jamie... I'm sure that's what keeps her spirits high. Thanks for being there for her... you are fantastic that way!
    Sending love and light to you, Jen...
    Best,
    Cate in California

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  53. Smiling through tears at how wonderful Lee and your sister have been for you..yes one certainly finds one's true friends at times like this. Many hugs Jen. xxx (thankyou for the update also David...the voice recorder sounds like a terrific idea.)

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  54. Thank you David for keeping us updated on how Jen is doing. Much love and prayers to you sweet Jen, love SuzanneXO

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  55. Thanks for the updade David. Give all my love to Jen. My prayers go to you all. The voice recorder is a very good idea! Dominique xxx

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  56. Thank you so much for the update! Jen I'm thinking of you each day. I hope that you are at peace and enjoying the time that you have with the boys. Hugs!

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  57. Thanks so much for the update, David. We all love Jenni so much. If only our love could make life easier for her. Please give her a big hug from all of us around the world. She is always in our thoughts and in our hearts.

    Cat

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  58. Thank you for the news - please send Jen my love - she is always in my prayers. I hope you had a lovely birthday with Jack.
    Karen xxx

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  59. Thank you so much for the update David.

    Tell Jen she is in my thoughts and I send my love.

    Hugs,
    Dodie

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  60. David,
    Please send Jen my love form Cornwall, England. Tell her we are enjoying an Indian summer, although there are conkers on the trees now. Love to you and Jack and also Jamie, who although grown is still Jen's boy and I think about him a lot.

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  61. David, thank you so much for this update. Please give Jen my love. And, my prayers continue for all of you.

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  62. Thank you for the update, David. I know that we were all waiting and hoping for one. God bless.

    ~ Wendy McDonagh-Valentine
    http://Crickleberrycottage.blogspot.com/

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  63. Dear David, give Jen my love too, all the way from Rome in Italy. Each sunny September day here I will dedicate to her

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  64. hi Jenni!!!!

    i am missing you tons dear friend. i pray for you and the boys daily and think of you so much...so i am with you in spirit! you have such a wonderful support system in place...Jack seems to be adjusting beautifully to the new changes...thank the good Lord for that. keep praying and asking God to reveal wisdom and His comfort and peace to you....He hears our every prayer and He never sleeps....He watches over you and your boys every minute of every day. Be rest assured of His love and protection.

    I love you sweet girl...missing you so very much,
    xoxoxoxo
    Shelbi

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  65. Happy Birthday to dear sweet jack. Oh Jen, I wish you well. I wish you energy and peace and smiles. I wish you simple times with your children and most of all -- so much more time to enjoy this life. you are such an inspiratioin and while we are so many miles away, my heart and prayers are with you & your family each day.
    Love & Hugs from Florida,
    Lisa

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  66. Hi again everyone,

    David here again. Just after I posted the comment yesterday I received a text from Jenni asking me to update. she asked me to tell you she is doing ok and is planning to come up to Warragul for some of the weekend. Jack is having a party at the ten pin bowling alley and Jenni is going to try to make it to that and then stay overnight. We'll see how it all goes.
    Thanks for all your thoughts, will pass them on.

    Regards,

    David.

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  67. Thanks David - hope that Jenni feels good and has a wonderful weekend with Jack.
    Stay strong sweet girl and get in lots of hugs and kisses all weekend.
    Can't wait to hear how wonderful it is.
    Nicky from Canada

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  68. Dear David,

    You truly are a dear! Thank you for the updates during these most difficult days. It's amazing how Jen has touched so many lives all over the globe.

    Sending my love to you all from the USA,
    :Debbie

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  69. thank you david for the update and for helping jen out so much the way you do. happy birthday to jack!

    jen...i love you and miss you here. i'm still praying for you.

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  70. So cool of you to update Jenni's blog, David.

    Jen, you are loved completely.

    xo

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  71. Hi Jen ~ You have been in my thoughts each day. Sending HUGE hugs your way.

    Thanks David for the updates.

    Nancy

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  72. Hi David—You are so very kind to keep us posted. I miss Jenni so much when she isn't able to write. I'm so happy she will get to go to Warrugul this weekend to Jack's party. It will give her so much happiness. Love to you all and especially a bi hug to our dear Jenni.
    Cat in Boston

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  73. Happy Birthday, Jack!

    I'm so happy to hear that you might be able to go to Jack's birthday party, Jen.

    Thank you, David, for the updates.

    Peace and blessings to you all.
    Love from Colorado,
    Emily

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  74. That's good to hear, David. Our hats are off to you for helping Jen out with her blog and especially taking the reins with sweet Jack. It can't be easy for any of you how this is all turning out, but God has special plans for each of you and will NEVER leave you even in the darkest of times.

    Awesome to hear you're gonna keep us posted with a future blog...that's priceless to those of us who have come to know and love y'all!!! Give my best to Jen--she's in my prayers and thoughts daily. Happy Birthday to your precious Jack boy!!!

    Hug and a Smootch,
    Kat

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  75. Good news indeed. Thanks so much, David. My love to Jenni and a Happy Belated Birthday to Jack!

    Danielle

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  76. Jenni,
    You are sweet to think of us who come here to check on you. We all worry a bit if we don't hear something for awhile. So glad to hear that you are going to get to go to David's to spend some time up there with Jack. Praying for a good weekend.
    Ruthie from california

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  77. Hi Jen and David,
    Thinking of you lots .... I hope the party went well and that Jack had a great birthday!
    xo,

    annie

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  78. Just to let you know Jenny that we are still thinking of you. Hope the weekend was good.

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  79. Jen...still thinking about you and praying for you, Jack, Jamie and David.

    David..how sweet of you to update for Jen. She is an amazing woman!! How wonderful that you are able to comfort Jack...be with him...keep him in a somewhat "normal" schedule..and just love him up. He is just a beautiful little boy..inside and out.

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  80. Dear Jen
    Deep in my thoughts and prayers, hope your weekend with Jack was fabulous and that you were pain free.
    All my love and blessings.
    Hope you are well.
    Nicky From Canada

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  81. Thinking of you, dearest Jenni, and sending love. Cat B xoxoxo

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  82. Thank YOU DAVID! the updates are so precious to those who love your jenni...she is all of ours, and we love her so!

    Jen, you are always with me. i HEART YOU GIRL!!
    xoxoxo
    shelbi

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  83. Think and pray for you and your family, daily, Jen. Hope you are able to experience joy and peace in your days.

    Love and gentle hugs,

    Cindy in Canada

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  84. peace and love coming from Texas.

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  85. such a long silence........

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  86. yes, much too long. hope to hear something soon. praying everyone is holding up.

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  87. Rest peacefully, Rest peacefully, Dearest Jenni. Praying for you always.
    Ruthie from California

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  88. Thinking of you dear Jen -- and praying that your days are peace-filled and you are pain free.

    With much love, From South Florida -- Lisa

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  89. Thinking of you often as is everyone here in your blogosphere :-) and sending lots of love and light to you and your boys, Jen.

    Hoping you had a wonderful weekend celebrating Jack's birthday - I'm sure just being in their presence is a gift and a joy... for you and for them!

    Take good care,
    Cate in California

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  90. Hi Jenni - thinking of you on this beautiful fall day. Hope you can feel all the love being sent your way!

    Susie from Rhode Island

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  91. In my thoughts and prayers Dear Jen.
    Love and many peaceful blessings.
    Nicky from Canada

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  92. Peace and love- May the Spirit hold all of you in deep love.

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  93. David...how is our Jen doing?? I speak for everyone here when I say any news you can give would be so deeply appreciated.
    Give her our love. Thank you.

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  94. Yes, the silence is too loud........

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  95. Jen

    Take care, I know you are taking this time to rest and take care of yourself and see your boys when you are able.

    God bless.

    Jemma

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  96. As always, you are always in my thoughts and prayers.

    Much love,
    :Debbie

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  97. I am worried. :( No word for a long time.

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  98. David here,
    Hi Everyone. Sorry for the long delay. Jenni has given me her password, etc to get on here and blog for her sometimes but I haven't sat down to sort it out yet. This just seems easier cos I know it, just hope everyone knows to check the comments. Might try later to sort the other out.

    Jenni had a couple of days at my place (one night) and was relatively pain free for that time. She made Jack's party and met his mates and some Mums. She had a mixed time here I think. It was good for her to see that Jack has a happy place here and he was excited to show her his school which he enjoys. But I get the feeling it was bittersweet for her. We all went back to her place on last sunday and have been there all week. Jenni has been back in hospice at nights aS she is sometimes getting pain in the night and they can better look after her there and I get better sleep so I can look after Jack. She has had a couple of bad nights since being back, especially friday night and Jack and I weren't able to see her saturday morning which was a shame as we were comiing back to Warragul. We are off to a seaside town called Seaspray for a few days with a mate of mine and some of his family. Unfortunately the weather is terrible but we are hoping to get out and try out Jack's new golf clubs tomorrow. We are also hoping to take him surf fishing for the first time. Then back to Frankston on wednesday.

    So mixed news here. I know Jenni is really struggling emotionally at the moment so all your thoughts and prayers are very much appreciated. Lee has been great again, helping bring Jenni up here to the party and then looking after the dog for the weekend so thanks to her - again.

    Will try an update as a real post later if I get time before Jack and I head for seaspray.

    Thanks everyone.

    David.

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  99. thanks for the update, David. You are all in my thoughts

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  100. Thank you so much David,I really appreciate that you have given us an update. Dear Jen, thinking of you and sending you much love. Suzanne .

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  101. Thank you once again David for taking the time to update us. Please give Jen my love. My prayers are with her and all of you. You are amazing David, the time you are taking out of your own life to see to it that Jen is able to spend time with Jack. It's wonderful that you are making it possible for her to have exactly what she needs...which is precious time spent with her children. God bless you.

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  102. Dear David,
    I can understand what you mean about perhaps it is bittersweet, but please believe that deep in her heart it is what she wants....to know that Jack is happy and settled into his life with you. It is of course, every mother's desire to see her children into adulthood and beyond, but she knows this is the best that this situation is going to give her. She wants nothing but the best for Jack. It is so good to hear that she had comfortable days there and that she was able to meet his mates firsthand. Blessings to you.

    Jenni,
    So glad that you were able to be there for Jacks party and that you were able to meet some of his new friends. I be that brought you a measure of comfort. I pray that hospice is able to keep you comfortable and that you are able to spend more weekends with Jack.

    Ruthie from California

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  103. Thanks David! You and Lee are such amazing friends to Jenni, just lovely!

    Jenni, sending you all my prayers and best wishes that hospice can manage your pain so that you can have many more moons with Jack and Jamie!

    Take good care,
    Cate in California

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  104. Thanks for the update. Jenni my love and prayers for you. Take comfort in knowing your beautiful little boy is being so cared for by his father, he really is, but will always love you in every way and with every breath . Love Carol

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  105. Jenni - so glad that you were able to be there for jack's b-day. He will remember that always. Sending love and blessing to you.

    Thank you to David, know that all of us here are sending you strength and blessings as well.

    Susie from RI

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  106. Thank you for the update. Jenni I'm thinking of you always. Hoping that you find peace and know that your boys will never ever forget how amazing their mama is!

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  107. Dear Jen,
    Mixed emotions must be an understatement right now. So, so sorry that you have to endure all of this Jen. I am thinking of you and your precious family and hope there are moments of sunshine and respite for you. With all my love, Victoria xxx

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  108. Thank you very much for the update David! I am relieved Jen was able to attend Jack's party! Tell her all my thoughts and prayers are with her! Give her my caring love! Dominique xx

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  109. Thank you for the update, David. Please let Jenni know she is much thought of and prayed for - we miss her here but are so glad you can tell us what's happening. Love to her.

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  110. Thank you for the update David. What a mixed bunch of emotions this all must be on ALL of you. You are ALL in my prayers each day.

    Sweet Jen, may your days hold within them some simple moments, peace-filled and pain-free, and a contentment deep down that comes from knowing that Jack is and will be alright and that many people, all over the world, are sending up so many good thoughts and prayers on your behalf. We all have come to love you and care about you and be inspired by your courage and bravery.
    XXXOOO Lisa in Florida

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  111. I simply cannot fathom what you are all are managing. Thank you, David, for this thread allowing us some way to stay connected. I wish I had something brilliant to say, but as I have done for so long now, I'll just send along my wishes for the easiest path of many. For all of you. Forever.

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  112. Thank you David for the update - so worried for Jen.

    Dear Sweet Jenni - sending you love, blessings and many hugs for you all. Wishing you peace and pain free days
    In my thoughts and prayers
    Nicky from Canada

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  113. Thank you for the update, David. I think people are starting to realize that you're posting updates via the comments section. My thoughts and prayers are with you and Jenni and the boys. God bless.

    ~ Wendy in New York

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  114. Thank you, David, for keeping us posted. Jenni means so much to us all. Thinking of you every day, Jenni, and sending love and all good wishes. May each day hold a little light in it for you. Your beautiful light is still shining bright for us and it always will. xoxox Cat B in Boston

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  115. David and Jen-
    Don't know why I never thought to check the comments to check for news but glad for the updates.
    Sending love and my warmest wishes for love and peace for you all
    Meg

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  116. Thanks for the update David. I can understand the mixed feelings but I also know that as long as her boys are settled Jen will be at peace. They mean everything to her. I hope you and Jack have had a lovely time away.
    You are all in my prayers, always.
    K xxx

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  117. I am so grateful for these updates dear David. thank you so much. I love hearing that things are good for the most part...and I am relieved to know Jenni is hanging in there. I am praying for her every day....i pray for you all every day.

    hugs
    shelbi

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  118. David,

    Thank you for updating , I appreciate it. Please send wishes of comfort to Jenni and let her know how many people all over the world are thinking of her.

    Happy belated birthday to Jack (from someone he doesn't know.)

    Hugs for Jenni all teh way from Toronto, Canada

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  119. Jenn

    I'm keeping you in my prayers sweet friend! Hang in there and know you have a lot of us bloggers who really do care.

    Hugs!
    Kat

    David

    Thanks so much for keeping us updated. I hope your trip with Jack is a good one. Take some photos for us, okay?

    Kat

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  120. Jen, just popping in to say hello, God is with you friend. you only need to whisper...He hears our prayers. always.

    you are always in my thoughts and daily in my prayers.

    xoxo
    shelbi

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  121. David and Jenni,

    Sending love and grace and peace.

    Jenni, I miss you, angel. But when I pray, you're right there with me.

    I hope you feel what you feel. No need to rush through anything for us. If you need me, I am always here.

    Extreme love,

    Jill

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