Thursday, 12 March 2009

Happy Days...

I am just so very happy my friends, you won't believe this but the terrible, debilitating pain I have been suffering for so very long has gone! I haven't said anything earlier as I felt I might jinx myself somehow, I needed to wait a while and make sure that it had really gone before I passed on the wonderful news. It all came to a head a couple of Monday's ago, the 2nd of March to be exact. The weekend leading up to that Monday was one of the worst bouts of pain I'd had in terms of not getting a break from it. I had to lie down most of the week and then that entire weekend I could not get off the couch for more than about 2 minutes before the pain would start and I would have to race back to the couch and lie down because I couldn't stand it. I was getting very depressed and was thinking I'd have to get a wheel chair so that I could go to chemo, or anywhere else I needed to go. Anyway I put up with it all weekend as there wasn't much I could do about it. Monday morning I phoned my pain specialist and told him where I was at and he suggested that I come into the unit (hospice) undergo some drug therapy and hope that that helps. I told him I would think about it. I got off the phone utterly sick and tired of the same answers that never seemed to work for long enough and always involved me having to go on heavy drugs. As I was thinking about all of this, I suddenly remembered another tablet that my pain specialist had told me to try a few weeks back. I didn't end up trying it because I didn't like the side effects that went with it and frankly I didn't believe that another tablet was the answer. Well, I decided that I may as well give it a try since I was only going to end up back in hospice on strong drugs anyway. I took one that lunchtime and another after dinner and by later that night was out of pain. Little by little, day by day, the pain got less and less until it has been completely gone for four days! I am just so thrilled and really amazed too as I would never have believed that taking that one extra tablet would have made such an enormous difference. I am just so very glad I remembered the tablet and took it.

The one good thing that has come out of so much suffering is the enormous capacity I now have for joy and peace. I can feel joy so easily. The most simple things can delight me and I feel so warm and happy inside. I am so very grateful to feel comfortable, I revel in it and I can now enjoy the days of my life for however long I've got left. I didn't want to waste a moment in pain and agony especially when my time was so precious. So, that is the latest news and so nice to share something good with you for a change, take care everyone...


  1. Hallelujah for the mercy of effective medication, Jen.

    I wish you much to enjoy also.

  2. I'm so happy for you.
    Love and blessings.

  3. That's the sort of news I like to hear! Sometimes its just one little thing that makes all the difference.
    love and hugs
    K xx

  4. How wonderful that one little pill is having such terrrific results. Enjoy the days!!!

    Cindy in Canada

  5. Dear Jen,
    So good to know you're out of pain my friend!
    Love to you darling and a huge and warm hug.

  6. joyous news! i'm so happy for you. ENJOY!!
    love to you.

  7. I am so glad you are feeling better...I think about and say a prayer for you every day even though we have never met. Also, thanks for reminding me to always appreciate life's blessings and that each day is precious as none of us know how long we will be here!

  8. So glad you are feeling better!

  9. Dear Jen
    What wonderful news - that is so good!! You must feel so elated and free.
    What a blessing.
    Hugs from Canada

  10. Jen,
    So happy you are pain free, so enjoy it baby! Get out there and do some living!

  11. So happy for you that you have found something to control the pain. God is watching over you :o) ((HUGS))

  12. Wonderful wonderful news!
    I am so pleased to read this. I pray for it to continue.
    Thinking of you and sending much love,
    Love and hugs Tabitha XXXXXXX

  13. an answer to pray Jen, God is so good....I am so happy to hear this amazing news. to think of you in pain breaks my heart. you are always my inspiration friend. I will pray this pain free life will last forever for you!

    i love you

  14. I am thrilled beyond belief for you! You deserve every blessing...


  15. Jenn,
    It truly makes my heart sing to know that you are not suffering any pain! enjoy, enjoy, enjly! Praise the Lord!
    Ruthie from California

  16. Hooray!!!! Soooo happy for you!!!

  17. Dear Jen, I am so, so happy to hear this news. What a blessing it must be for you to have found this... and well done on persevering and trying the new tablet. Yay!

  18. Not kidding??? Oh Jen, this is the bestest news!!! Drugs are so hard all the time so when one really really works, why, you're right, time to celebrate!

  19. Wonderful news! I hope, hope, hope this is the answer and it lasts!!!
    Thanks for sharing the joy.

  20. Wishing you more JOY than you could even imagine experiencing. I am praying daily for your peace and comfort Jen. {{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}

  21. Hallelujah!

    I hope you are reveling in the pain free days! I hope you are soaking in the moments.

    As a matter of fact, I'm going to do the same!

  22. Jen, this is such wonderful news. We have all been praying for your comfort, and I can only guess what this must mean for you.

    God bless you, sweet Jen.

  23. Yay Missy!!!May it last for ever and ever and ever!Bless you darling heart, from London with much much love!

  24. yeaaa, how nice. i think learning to enjoy the comfort of being pain free is the hardst thing to do. i miss the days when i was 25 and didn't have constant knee pain. And didn't have all these other issues.
    aaah. hear your msg loud and clear. enjoy the pain free time. Yeaa.

  25. So glad you are feeling better. Your words seem filled with sunshine and smiles. I hope this pain free time continues for you :)

  26. What a blessing! I admire your willingness to seize joy and defy the rest.

  27. Joy joy! May this be the way forever :-)

    Cate in California

  28. hi sweet jen, just been thinking about ya alot this week. i hope you are still painfree and doing well.

    i love you,

  29. Hi Jen

    You've been in my thoughts and prayers. I was hoping you had posted an update. I hope you're feeling good and staying busy.

    I'm stuck at the airport, but at least I have my laptop and can blog while I wait!


  30. What an inspirational woman you are. I feel really blessed to have found your blog. Congrats on the pain relief. I hope the pain steers clear. XOXO