Hi guys, yes I am so very HAPPY right now. I have had almost 5 good days now (touching wood) and I feel fantastic! I love it when I have good news to share with you and I was just so excited to be able to tell you how well I'm doing right now. I was out in the backyard today mucking around and I suddenly realized how well I felt, I got this surge of happiness and well being in my heart and I stopped what I was doing and just soaked it all up, the gorgeous Autumn leaves under my feet (that desperately need raking), the sun on my shoulders, the fresh, sweet air I was just so very grateful for this normal feeling. I made the most of it too!
Anyway, I had a long discussion with my Oncologist on Friday and I think we may have reached an understanding. Not 100% convinced, however, time shall tell and if I am still not happy, then I will move on. He has now put me on some really good antibiotics as he has come clean and told me that one of the chemo drugs I am on is known for causing infections. I would have found that useful information quite sometime ago as I kept getting these infections which in turn were causing a lot of pain and discomfort. Oh well, I guess at least I know now...
In other news he (the Oncologist) has booked me in to the see world class surgeons at Peter McCallum Institute in Melbourne. The surgeons that my Oncologist generally uses (and a top surgeon I saw myself) said they wouldn't touch me again but my Oncologist told me about another patient that has had almost identical cancer to me and got treated with surgery at Peter McCallum successfully, so that is why my Oncologist is insisting on me at least speaking to them and letting them evaluate whether I can be operated on or not. Well I am happy to meet with them, of course, I would try anything that might extend my life! I meet with them on July 1st and they will tell me whether or not they can operate. If they can it is a huge operation, they remove everything from my pelvis including my bladder and rectum, uterus, etc, etc. It will mean having a bag permanently (which has happened anyway really) and it will mean having another bag for urine as I will not have a bladder. It also means a huge recovery time including rehabilitation and the operation itself is quite risky, however the options for me are not good so this is worth a visit and if possible then it may be worth having the surgery. If it buys me time with my boys I will do anything - no matter how scary. I will keep you all informed as to how it turns out.
Now these photos on the left are obviously nothing to do with cancer except that they show you parts of my healing place, my home full of love and comfort. I am sharing with you some of the favorite parts of my home. Hope you enjoy seeing bits of how I live and my taste in things. It is probably what you would term 'shabbychic' with a bit more of the shabby and a lot less of the chic lol!!! I just thought that would be something fun and different from all my cancer posts.
As I loaded these on, I realized that I don't have many of the parts of my home that I really love, I want to go and take some photos right now and load them on but it's too dark really and they won't turn out as well as if I took them in the morning so I will wait and add to them tomorrow. Anyway there are a few that I like so hopefully you will like them too. I always like to see how people live and how they decorate their homes and do their gardens and that sort of thing, I must be a bit of a sticky beak but I thought you might all like to know a bit more about me than just my battle with cancer. I intend to show you some photos of me soon too, some baby shots, some growing up, that sort of thing. I will be embarrassed because I am not photogenic at all but still, I'm going to get past that and just do it.
Take care my friends, of yourselves and each other.
Things I'm Grateful For Today:
Feeling well these past days.
My boys, of course.
A chance to relax on Sunday which was just lovely and I needed it.
That Jack's Daddy is great at fixing toys and reading instructions and putting tricky toys together - I am hopeless at that.
My friend Lee.
My brand new nephew, Harrison.
That I am well enough to start picking Jack up from school again.
That I can finally have my chemo on Tuesday (touching wood).
That my oldest son has never been into drinking or drugs or anything horrible like that.
For support sites online.