Monday, 7 April 2008

Going, going, gone...


Yes my dear friends, I have gone to Hospice. Thank you for all your kind opinions and recommendations. You are all very thoughtful and kind. I was planning on going back to Hospice today anyway but unfortunately, awoke this morning in terrible pain and the decision was kind of made for me, if you know what I mean! I was in pain similar to that of last Thursday's. I think the tumour must be growing and changing and pressing on different nerves. Anyway, long story short, Mum came and rescued me (again) and got me to Hospice early this morning. I have literally dropped in to pick up a few things and thought I would let you know I won't be online for a couple of days (gasp)... Not too long as I am speaking with staff at Hospice regarding bringing my computer in, or possibly having the use of a laptop (thanks Mum).

Thank you all so very much for your kindness and support, you already know how much I appreciate it and continue to do so, it really brightens up my day to hear from you and I feel part of a magical circle somehow. We are all connected in some way that is very precious. Okay, I won't get too mushy on you as I will be back online very soon anyway and look forward to reading your messages and emails. Take good care, love and hugs Jen B. xxxx

37 comments:

  1. Dear Sweet Jen, I am so happy that you have gone back.If they can help make your terrible pain any less and take any of your burdon then it is the place to be. O feel relieved knowing you are being cared for. Since all of us want to care for you, I know we are all happy that at least someone is doing it even if we cannot be there ourselves.Because this is all about what is best for you. If it's best for you then it will be the best thing for little Jack. You are as always>in my prayers. love you, debi

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  2. Dearest Jen,
    bless you for your courage, strength and sweetness that dances off of each post you write. It is evident that all your blog readers adore you and want only the best for you.
    I am so very happy to hear that you will be getting the care and attention you need and it brought a huge smile of comfort to my face and peace to my heart.
    Sending you a big hug {{{{xx}}}}}
    all the way from california.
    Looking forward to hearing how you are doing when you can.
    love julia

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  3. As I told one of the men in the nursing care center where my dog and I do pet therapy who said he felt like an "invalid", sometimes our contribution to the world is in caring for others, and sometimes it is in allowing others to care for us.

    Your turn to be cared for, my dear. Letting others feel valuable by letting them take care of us is sometimes the most important thing we can do.

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  4. Dear Jen,

    I'm glad to hear that you're going back to the hospice for more of the care and rest that you need.

    Lots of big hugs and continuing prayers for strength, courage and healing,
    j

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  5. Rest, relax, and enjoy the special times you will be spend with Jack and your family while you are in this wonderful place.

    Warm Wishes,
    Linda @ Barefoot in the Park

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  6. Hey Jen,

    My love and thoughts are with you. As I have said before you are an inspiration to us all.

    Love Deb Ross xxx

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  7. Dear Jen - thanks for letting us know! So glad you've made such a good decision and glad to hear that you're being looked after.

    When you get a chance would you email me? My email addy is
    hilbec281@optusnet.com.au? I'd like to send you some books (to the hospice) if possible (and if you don't mind)....something to do while Jack is at school and you're resting up in your comfy bed!!

    Lots of hugs and healing vibes,

    Rebecca xxxx

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  8. I think that you have done the right thing going back.
    We are away until Fri (11th), but I will check back and see how you have been doing then.
    My thoughts and prayers are with you.
    Warmest wishes,
    Tabitha X

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  9. Oh Jen, All the best babe, My thoughts and prayers are with you!!!!!!!
    Come back soon!!!
    xoxox
    Will

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  10. Let them love on you, Jen. That's why they're there :)

    Much love to you-

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  11. Dear Jen,

    Just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you, and hoping your pain disappears soon.

    Your post is once again full of strength, hope and life. You are such a great writer!

    take care of yourself.

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  12. Jen - I'm with you. You are in good hands.

    xo Jena

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  13. Thank you for letting us know, Jen. Now you rest as much as you can, allow those wonderful people to care for you, and gather your strength again. Bless you. You have come to be a very important person in the lives of so many, there is a circle of love surrounding the earth because of you.

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  14. Take care, take all care, take all the care that comes. I carry you in my heart.

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  15. Jen- Rest well, I hope you brought some wonderful books to pamper yourself. I will be thinking of you and your sons.

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  16. Jen, I am sooooooo glad that you made that decision, and that you are in a place where you can be cared for and pampered a bit! Thank you for letting us know, and I hope you will be able to be online again soon! Is there an address - at the hospice - where we can send you snail mail stuff (cards, music, books and so on)? My email is jeanineguidry@mac.com.

    Love & hugs,

    Jeanine

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  17. Jen,
    Sending you love and well wishes from across the globe. I can rest well, knowing that you and Jack are being cared for. Bless you, Bless you, Bless you.
    Ruthie

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  18. Sending you (as always) warm wishes, thoughts and prayers from Michigan!

    Hugs,
    Rebecca

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  19. My dear Jen,

    You are so brave and strong. I wish you the best! Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  20. Jeni, it sounds like, after reading and getting caught up with your life, that being at Hospice is the best place to be. You are NOT giving up anything, other than to completely focus on you and your cancer healing. Screw the guilt, from a mom who was hospitalized with an illness as well 3 yrs ago...it serves no apparent purpose does it?

    The compassion you'll receive from the care there will be second only to your family and friends and that will go miles and miles to keeping your spirits up, and your family's too.

    i haven't been here for a few weeks, but you're on my mind constantly, and in my prayers always.

    peace from my heart to your heart,
    Lillithmother

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  21. Hello. This post is likeable, and your blog is very interesting, congratulations :-). I will add in my blogroll =). If possible gives a last there on my blog, it is about the Toner, I hope you enjoy. The address is http://toner-brasil.blogspot.com. A hug.

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  22. Hi Jen,
    I have been sitting here reading your entire blog tonight. Your journey breaks my heart and I feel myself caring so much for you and your boys. I'd give anything to be your neighbor, your friend right now and just do anything at all possible for you to help. I hope you are getting relief, peace, love, rest, comfort. I'm sending you all my good vibes I can muster at this point in hopes you can feel them.
    Take care Jen...can't wait to hear from you again.
    Kathy

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  23. Hi Jen,
    Sounds like a really amazing place to be for healing and resting. I understand that it's not your home, of course, but it sounds like a spa and I love that you get to spend time with the nurses and get such good care in a lovely setting. I'm not sure we have such nice hospices here in the US. I love that Jack can be there, too.

    Please take good care and rest well knowing that it will help in the long run to get your tumor to shrink and you to come home pain free - that is the goal.

    Sending you healing and loving thoughts from California, as always,
    Cate

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  24. Rest a bit easier Jen, knowing that you physical and spiritual needs will be met. This is your special time to re-energise yourself. And knowing you are in such a lovely place I can reast a bit easier too.
    Hugs and prayers
    K xx

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  25. Sending you love, peace and a world of healing on the arms of this evening,

    God bless you my friend,

    M

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  26. Dear Jen,
    You don't know me, I have seen your blog a few weeks ago and then after reading Leeanne Oconnor's blog it has prompted me to write. I have read some of your blog messages and they made me shed some tears, being a mother of 2 girls I just can not even imagine what you are going through. I hope you don't mind my sharing an experience of losing a loved one to cancer. My father was about to semi retire and he was a hands on grandpa to all his grandchildren. He would pick them up and take them all to the pictures or to where ever they wanted to go. At 66 y.o. he was diagnosed with lung cancer (May 2004). Initially the doctor said he may need surgery to remove the tumour but they checked firstly to see that it had not spread. I went with Mum and Dad to get the results. We were told the cancer had in fact spread to the bones. Dad was told he probably won't make it to Christmas but he can have chemo to reduce the tumour and buy him some time. Dad broke down, but vowed to fight this thing. I spent alot of time with him after my first daughter was born in August 2003. He would pick us up and go out for lunch and clothes shopping (for him, not me). August 2003 until August 2004 was the most precious of memories for me. In September he worsened, his eyesight deteriorated then his voice. He wanted to try an Alternative Treatment that consisted of a strict diet and other treatments. By November he had to go into hospital, so the doctor who was administering the treatment tried negotiating with many hospitals around Melbourne to allow Dad to be cared for while he receive the treatment. Some hospitals allowed Dad to stay for short periods. In the end the only option was for Dad to stay at a Motel to continue his treatment and have a specialist 24 hour nurse. He was determined to continue, the doctor was so taken in by Dad that he was prepared to come to Dad and administer this treatment.
    This was the biggest wake up call for me, I am glad I got the chance to tell him I loved him, and that he was to expect his 8th grand child. I told only him the sex of the baby, he smiled and said (oh yeh!!!!4 girls and 4 boys). I was six months pregnant with my second child when Dad passed away on 26 December 2004. From January 2005 I started scrapbooking and have never stopped since. I do appoligise for writing so much, I never really have the opportunity to talk about Dad. Mum and I talked about him alot, sadly she passed away in September 2006.
    You sound like an amazing person and I just want to say 'God Bless You' and I will be praying for you.
    Love
    Joy xxx

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  27. Hello Jen,
    My prayers and thoughts are with you!
    My father was under Hospice Care many years ago and it was such a positive experience for all of us.
    I am trying to will my positive strength and thoughts your way.

    Michael

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  28. Dear Jen
    Good thoughts, positive energy, and white light to you and your family!
    I have donated a Little Blue Santa for your auction and will help in any way we can.
    We have had several experiences with Hospice. It is a wonder life affirming place.
    Much love to you

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  29. Jen--Take good care. You and your boys are in my thoughts and heart.--SheShe

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  30. Take care sweetie. Enjoy each day. Hug your sons. Turn your face towards the sun. Breathe. Sending love and prayers.

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  31. i'm so sorry that the pain has increased, but i'm very happy that you're being well cared-for. rest and know that we're here listening and blessing you.

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  32. Thinking of you and wishing you comfort.

    Blessings,
    StacyG
    Tampa, FL

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  33. Hi Dear Jen,
    I am so sorry your pain worsened I know you will be in good hands. You deserved the proper care and comfort. My heart and prayers are always with you. Looking forward to you coming back~ Love you, Rosemary~

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  34. Love thinking of you in that place, sweet one.

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  35. Jen,
    I am glad you are in a place where they can give you comfort and help take away the pain. You so deserve to be in painfree and peaceful place, to enjoy your time with Jack. You are such an amazing mother and person. Sending love, prayers and healing thoughts to you.
    Love and more love,
    Eileen

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  36. sahizuru11Jen,

    My heart goes with you, sweet girl.

    Love,

    Jill

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  37. Dear, Dear Jen. I hope you get all of the rest you need.

    Much love and keeping you in my thoughts,
    Danielle

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