I must admit I have found blogging about things going on in my life lately, an outlet that has added so much joy and therefore healing into my life. I have had contact with the most wonderful women, Bella, Meg, Jena, Bete and many others whom are always listed in my 'Inspiration' column on the right, I am sure I would not have had an opportunity to talk with or connect to these amazing people if it were not for blogging. I thought I would find it very difficult to blog about my experiences with cancer and all that goes with it, and at times I do feel a bit more vulnerable than at others and I do wonder about whether I have been too graphic (more graphic content is intended), or perhaps made people feel a bit uncomfortable by sharing some fairly heavy stuff. Still, I have run with it in spite of these negative thoughts, I still have a lot to say and have decided I will continue! I have come to the decision that it's not up to me to worry about how other people react to my story, if it makes anyone uncomfortable or is a little confronting then they do not have to read it, we all have choices, thankfully. I need to do this as part of my healing, I have been so encouraged by the contact I have been lucky enough to have had with brave, talented, truly awesome women, this is a part of the journey that I didn't foresee, a part that makes this writing on my blog a real, sacred space for me, giving me something far more valuable than I would have thought possible. It feels to me as though the Universe or God, or a higher power of some description or that quite probably defies description, has taken my hand and guided me right here to this very place. It is one of the 'Silver Linings' I have talked about previously. It has opened me up in delightful new ways, filled me with a comfort I couldn't have imagined, it has given me access to a wealth of wisdom and heart and strength, a pool of these things at my finger tips for whenever I need to dip in! I can go right over to Meg's and begin reading and find myself thinking, smiling, laughing, crying - feeling, then pop over to Jena's and find so much of worth there, things I didn't even know I needed right then and there, things of wonder. Then, over to Bella's and I find kinship in the strength and power of this woman whom has battled and lives to tell the tale and how she tells it! Bete from Portugal who has reached out to me with her knowledge of Reiki, wanting to help me feel well. So very many wonderful women sharing their stories, sharing their hearts, putting it all out there to share! I am so very glad they do as it has been invaluable to me. Each day has felt easier for me because they take the time to put down their stories and thoughts for others to read. I could not have imagined, way back when I first heard about blogging, that it would have this affect on me and be such a valuable resource to me and to my healing. It also encourages me to keep sharing as you never know who it will touch and perhaps just help a little, which is why I decided to start writing about this journey I'm on in the first place, to perhaps support others going through similar to me and instead, as is often the way, it has helped me so very much.