Hi friends, I know, I know, I have been rather tardy in the upkeep of my little blog lately. I have been a little under the weather. Radiotherapy complications have arisen and been quite a trial for me (like I need another trial..) then Jack came down with gastro and of course yours truly caught it from him. Honestly, you would think I could have a bit of a break from sickness and pain whilst I am in remission wouldn't you. I must admit I am really struggling with this as I am constantly in pain which in turn depletes my energy and I just feel as though it is so damned unfair. I know that is not a good attitude and I truly am working hard on removing such ugly and fruitless thoughts, nevertheless, it ain't easy...I think the biggest struggle is that I should be well right now, I so needed to enjoy being well as I haven't had the sheer luxury of that for so long and this just feels like I'm being cheated. My next PET scan is fast approaching (December) and I am of course really worried as the severity of the cancer I have does not (according to stats) stay away very long, therefore I wanted to make the absolute most of this time off the rugged path of fighting cancer. I had really harsh radiotherapy about 4 years ago now, you wouldn't think it could still cause me such problems but after doing a lot of research it is a lifetime burden and seriously detracts from your quality of life. Well, I can vouch for that. Anyway enough, I shall move past it, take a deep breath and fight on.
On a different front, I have been using my shed/studio (time to start calling it just the studio now I think). Not as much as I would like but hey life intrudes even when you have your health. Still, I made a very quick, sweet little card the other day for a friend which inspired me to start my Christmas cards. I'm actually looking forward to it. I am also about to undertake a vintage journal, filled with old envelopes, sheet music, old book pages, etc. Hopefully it will be sweet and I can make them as gifts.
Alright dear ones, enough for now, I hope you are all well and happy, take care of yourselves and each other and I will try to post a little more regularly.
Sunday, 11 November 2007
Posted by Jen Ballantyne at 7:31 am